4-19-10

Today I decided I would try the treadmill in the basement again. James got the TV to work and I just figured I would run as many miles as I could stand. It turns out it wasn't very many. I got two miles in. Two miles with two stops to get Livy snacks, 1 stop to pick her up after she fell off of the weight bench and 2 walking breaks. It wasn't a good run but it was better than laying in bed feeling sick.

I really can't figure out how much of all of this is mental and how much is really physical. I am overly emotional and am feeling sorry for myself because I feel sick. It is hard to go from feeling like I was in the best shape of my life to feeling like I want to lay in bed all day. Right now I don't think that running the marathon will be a risk to the baby because I won't be very far along but I am just so tired and discouraged I can't even imagine running that far. It seems impossible and I would rather quit now then get there and have to quit in the middle of the race.

I dont' know what I will do.

4-17-10 Attempted 18, accomplished 14.

Ugggghhhhhhhh. This was supposed to be my 18 mile run. I just couldn't get myself to do it.

I started off with Karri and Mandy and we planned on doing 10 miles. I felt okay, I had to make a bathroom stop at about 3 miles and also took off one of my shirts because I didn't realize how warm it was going to be today. I had to ask them to walk about 4 times because I felt like I was pushing a little too hard. They were nice enough to slow down for me. Most of the 10 miles went by okay, I felt alright and I was having a good time just chatting and having someone to run with. At 10 miles I dropped them off at Karri's house and then planned on running home to refill my water and use the bathroom again. When I got home I just wanted to lay down and go back to bed. I changed my shirt because I was so sweaty and slathered on some more "body glide" on all the friction areas. I used the bathroom about 4 times and still felt like my bladder was full. I told James I just wanted to stay home. He talked me into not quitting and told me to just run over to the Soccer park where Rachel was playing her game. It was about 4 miles. I got 1/2 a mile and called him and begged him to pick me up. He said he would but that he thought I could do it if I just tried. So I just kept running. I ran past another park, stopped to use the bathroom again and then ran (walked a lot) to the soccer field to watch Rachel's game. I ended up at 14.38 very slow miles but I was glad James encouraged me to not stop at 10 miles.

I am so discouraged. I feel like I need to go the bathroom with every step, I want to throw up most of the day and I am just tired. I don't know what I am doing. I am just frustrated and discouraged and confused. I have worked really hard to get up to this many miles and now I just don't know what to do. I think a lot of it is mental, but being nauseous really is frustrating and it is hard to concentrate on running when it feels like I need to go the bathroom all the time.

Sigh.

Also my energy chew "shot blocks" make me want to throw up.

4-15-10

I went with Karri this morning. It was a great run, and a beautiful day but towards the end felt a little drained of energy. We planned on 5 miles but ended up at 4.6 by the time we got back home. Close enough for today.

When I got home I felt feverish and kept having to go the bathroom. Went to the Dr. to have a Urine analysis to test for UTI. The nurse said there is blood in my urine and she also said "did you know you are pregnant?" Kind of funny, I told her I knew, she seemed relieved.
I looked up the causes for blood in urine, it seems that is a common thing in runners because their bladder bounces around a lot and can cause bruising and bleeding of the bladder walls. All I know is that my bladder seems to be very unhappy.

4-14-10

I went running this morning planning on being home by 8am to get Rachel ready for school. I ended up being a little late so James got her ready and I ran home jumped in the car and got her to school on time. Next time I will leave earlier.

I don't feel morning sickness quite as strongly when I am running, it is nice.

4-10-10 Surprise!

4-9-10 16 miles

I did it. I finished 16 miles. I took me a while but I did it.

I woke up at 5:45 and just wanted to go back to bed, I had no desire to run, or even get out of bed. I eventually pulled myself out of bed, fed the baby and got dressed.

I headed outside at 6:20 and started my run. It wasn't too cold today even though it was still dark. I took a different route and had to do 4 laps around the track to get in enough miles before heading down to Mom's neighborhood.

I split the whole run into two 8 mile halves. I took a quick water/ibuprofen/bathroom break at mom's house in the middle. It is always hard to get going again after stopping. Miles 8-10 were sort of out in the country, a lot of cows.

 I finished the last half of my miles slower than the first. At about 13 miles I was on a road with a lot of dirt and loose gravel on the shoulder and everytime a big truck came by I got dirt in my eyes.  The wind started blowing too and so I had to run into the wind. The last two miles (like always) were slow and hard. My hips and knees were aching and I was just exhausted. I arrived in front of my house at exactly 16 miles though so I must have timed it right.

I took my ice bath again today. I think it makes a big difference in terms of how sore my muscles get. My knees are still hurting but my leg muscles aren't nearly as sore as they were last week. I am exhausted though. I just need a nap.

I think I am skipping my medium run of 8 miles this week. I don't have the energy or the time.

Next week: an 18 mile long run?!?

4-7-10

An early 4 miles outside this morning with Karri. It was a beautiful day and I had a great time. The miles fly by when I have someone to run with. 


I am feeling so negative about the Marathon. I am discouraged after the half marathon on Saturday. It was just so hard. I still can't possibly imagine that I will be able to run twice that distance in 37 days. I have 16 miles coming up this weekend but I am still not sure when I will find the time to fit them in. I used to feel good about increasing my mileage but now I just dread it.