4-19-10

Today I decided I would try the treadmill in the basement again. James got the TV to work and I just figured I would run as many miles as I could stand. It turns out it wasn't very many. I got two miles in. Two miles with two stops to get Livy snacks, 1 stop to pick her up after she fell off of the weight bench and 2 walking breaks. It wasn't a good run but it was better than laying in bed feeling sick.

I really can't figure out how much of all of this is mental and how much is really physical. I am overly emotional and am feeling sorry for myself because I feel sick. It is hard to go from feeling like I was in the best shape of my life to feeling like I want to lay in bed all day. Right now I don't think that running the marathon will be a risk to the baby because I won't be very far along but I am just so tired and discouraged I can't even imagine running that far. It seems impossible and I would rather quit now then get there and have to quit in the middle of the race.

I dont' know what I will do.

4-17-10 Attempted 18, accomplished 14.

Ugggghhhhhhhh. This was supposed to be my 18 mile run. I just couldn't get myself to do it.

I started off with Karri and Mandy and we planned on doing 10 miles. I felt okay, I had to make a bathroom stop at about 3 miles and also took off one of my shirts because I didn't realize how warm it was going to be today. I had to ask them to walk about 4 times because I felt like I was pushing a little too hard. They were nice enough to slow down for me. Most of the 10 miles went by okay, I felt alright and I was having a good time just chatting and having someone to run with. At 10 miles I dropped them off at Karri's house and then planned on running home to refill my water and use the bathroom again. When I got home I just wanted to lay down and go back to bed. I changed my shirt because I was so sweaty and slathered on some more "body glide" on all the friction areas. I used the bathroom about 4 times and still felt like my bladder was full. I told James I just wanted to stay home. He talked me into not quitting and told me to just run over to the Soccer park where Rachel was playing her game. It was about 4 miles. I got 1/2 a mile and called him and begged him to pick me up. He said he would but that he thought I could do it if I just tried. So I just kept running. I ran past another park, stopped to use the bathroom again and then ran (walked a lot) to the soccer field to watch Rachel's game. I ended up at 14.38 very slow miles but I was glad James encouraged me to not stop at 10 miles.

I am so discouraged. I feel like I need to go the bathroom with every step, I want to throw up most of the day and I am just tired. I don't know what I am doing. I am just frustrated and discouraged and confused. I have worked really hard to get up to this many miles and now I just don't know what to do. I think a lot of it is mental, but being nauseous really is frustrating and it is hard to concentrate on running when it feels like I need to go the bathroom all the time.

Sigh.

Also my energy chew "shot blocks" make me want to throw up.

4-15-10

I went with Karri this morning. It was a great run, and a beautiful day but towards the end felt a little drained of energy. We planned on 5 miles but ended up at 4.6 by the time we got back home. Close enough for today.

When I got home I felt feverish and kept having to go the bathroom. Went to the Dr. to have a Urine analysis to test for UTI. The nurse said there is blood in my urine and she also said "did you know you are pregnant?" Kind of funny, I told her I knew, she seemed relieved.
I looked up the causes for blood in urine, it seems that is a common thing in runners because their bladder bounces around a lot and can cause bruising and bleeding of the bladder walls. All I know is that my bladder seems to be very unhappy.

4-14-10

I went running this morning planning on being home by 8am to get Rachel ready for school. I ended up being a little late so James got her ready and I ran home jumped in the car and got her to school on time. Next time I will leave earlier.

I don't feel morning sickness quite as strongly when I am running, it is nice.

4-10-10 Surprise!

4-9-10 16 miles

I did it. I finished 16 miles. I took me a while but I did it.

I woke up at 5:45 and just wanted to go back to bed, I had no desire to run, or even get out of bed. I eventually pulled myself out of bed, fed the baby and got dressed.

I headed outside at 6:20 and started my run. It wasn't too cold today even though it was still dark. I took a different route and had to do 4 laps around the track to get in enough miles before heading down to Mom's neighborhood.

I split the whole run into two 8 mile halves. I took a quick water/ibuprofen/bathroom break at mom's house in the middle. It is always hard to get going again after stopping. Miles 8-10 were sort of out in the country, a lot of cows.

 I finished the last half of my miles slower than the first. At about 13 miles I was on a road with a lot of dirt and loose gravel on the shoulder and everytime a big truck came by I got dirt in my eyes.  The wind started blowing too and so I had to run into the wind. The last two miles (like always) were slow and hard. My hips and knees were aching and I was just exhausted. I arrived in front of my house at exactly 16 miles though so I must have timed it right.

I took my ice bath again today. I think it makes a big difference in terms of how sore my muscles get. My knees are still hurting but my leg muscles aren't nearly as sore as they were last week. I am exhausted though. I just need a nap.

I think I am skipping my medium run of 8 miles this week. I don't have the energy or the time.

Next week: an 18 mile long run?!?

4-7-10

An early 4 miles outside this morning with Karri. It was a beautiful day and I had a great time. The miles fly by when I have someone to run with. 


I am feeling so negative about the Marathon. I am discouraged after the half marathon on Saturday. It was just so hard. I still can't possibly imagine that I will be able to run twice that distance in 37 days. I have 16 miles coming up this weekend but I am still not sure when I will find the time to fit them in. I used to feel good about increasing my mileage but now I just dread it.

4-5-10

4 miles at the gym. Tried to increase my speed and shoot for 10 minute miles.

4-3-10 Winter Racing Circuit Half Marathon

This morning was the WRC Half Marathon.


I woke up early this morning in order to get up, get the baby fed, kids dressed and then wake up James so he could drive me up the canyon to meet the bus that would take me to the beginning of the half marathon. We left the house just after 6am got up there and I got on the bus just before 7am. Then we waited on the bus for a long time and finally we drove to the start. The route was the first half of the Ogden Marathon that I will be running in May so I was looking forward to seeing what it would be like. As we drove up there I was happy to see that there were no really big hills just a few longer inclines. Once we got off the bus I realized just how freezing cold it was. (Last night when I checked the weather there was a "Winter Storm Warning" for that area.) There was snow on the ground and the roads were slushy but it wasn't snowing that was good. The bad part was that the wind was blowing and it was just freezing. I had on long pants, 2 long sleeve shirts, a t-shirt, a windbreaker, a hat, a neck warmer and gloves with hand warmers inside and I was still freezing. I eventually just stood in the middle of a big group of people and let them block the wind.

The race started at 8. It was really beautiful, the mountains, the snow and the trees but I could only think how cold I was. The first 3 miles I was fine, stiff and chilly but okay. At mile 3 there was a water stop and some port-a-potties, there were a few people in line so I thought I would just wait and go when I got to the next water stop. Between mile 3 and 4 I got really cold and the wind blowing in my face just made it hard to catch my breath even with the neck warmer up around my face. I walked a little and then tried to run the next little bit.

I got to the next water stop and there was one port-a-potty. There were 3 people in front of me and one girl took f-o-r-e-v-e-r. It was ridiculous. I stood there for 5 minutes freezing and waiting. After finally using the bathroom and grabbing some water I knew I was really behind. (I also took of my windbreaker because it felt to bulky and uncomfortable.)There were only a few people behind me. All this time I had been keeping pace with a lady in a pink shirt. She seemed to be running my speed but when I stopped for the bathroom break I lost her. The next few miles I would run, then feel like I had to walk, then gear up and run again just too realize that I needed to slow down and walk again. I

Finally by mile 8 I was good and at mile 9  I was feeling like I found my pace. I did well until I hit mile 10. I pushed the button on my Nike+ and realized that there was no way I was going to beat my previous half marathon time of 2 hours 28 minutes, I was so discouraged. I had really hoped that I would be able to cut at least a few minutes off my time. Well I figured I should just try to at least match my time so I kept on running. By that time there were quite a few people slowing down and walking so it felt good to pass them by and just keep right on going. I had a couple points where I slowed and walked for a minute but I was feeling good and the sun finally came out. I was able to take off my other long sleeve shirt although my face and feet were still freezing. Most of the run my feet were just like ice, I could feel the water sloshing around my toes. By mile 12 I was exhausted and my hips hurt but I did see my lady in the pink shirt not too far in front of me.  My nike+  got off on the mileage once again and told me I was done when I still had a quarter of a mile left.

 I ran as fast as I could (which wasn't very fast at that point) and rounded the corner in time to see the finish line. James was there taking pictures (he had the kids stay in the car so they didn't freeze).

I crossed the finish line at 2 hours 32 minutes. I was disappointed to have taken so long but so happy to be done running.

I ended up skipped the breakfast they had there because the line was too long, got in the warm car (after James and a few other people pushed us out of a snowy slushy mud pit) took my soaking socks off and we drove back home.

I didn't do my usually ice bath because I was so cold and I didn't ice my knees very long either. I had a short time to get showered then we headed to Bunny Day at the Grandparents. Then we came home watched the second session of conference and went to my parents house for an Easter Egg hunt. Then James headed to the Priesthood session and I played games with my sisters at my mom's house while the kids ran around in the freezing cold backyard. Finally now the kids are in bed and I am sitting here eating their Easter Candy when I should really just go to bed.

I don't know if it was the cold weather or because I didn't ice my legs afterward but I am feeling it now. My hips are sore, my calves are tight and it hurts to walk down the stairs. I am exhausted. I am glad it is over. I am feeling really nervous now about the marathon. There was no way I would have been able to run 13 more miles today. Absolutely no way. I don't know how I am going to do it.  I am now not sure which I hate worse Cold Wind or Hills.